For Episode7, we're going to be jumping into the topic of “Tower Moments.” These milestones of transformation specifically speak to a time in the spiritual journey where it seems as though everything in life just crumbles, unravels, falls apart, or is completely dissolved. At some point on the spiritual manifestation journey, we all hit one of these tower moments, and even though it’s filled with spiritual benefit, it can be super painful.
But when you can surrender and allow yourself to be fully immersed in the Divine process, it powerfully opens the door for something new, something beautiful, and for all of our dreams to come true.
Erin Ann Barcellos isn’t a stranger to these “tower moments”, and in this episode of the Divinely Inspired Living podcast, she reveals details about her most recent experiences of intense transformation. Within just a couple months, she experienced a major car accident, devastating loss, amplified family healing, and big changes within her business - all leading her to a new beginning that she wasn’t expecting.
She shares how she moved through the storms of these big moments, and how she ended up embracing this new beginning while returning to unwavering faith in the Universe’s plan.
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Hey. Hey. Hey. So glad you're back for another episode of Divinely inspired living. It's my deepest honor and privilege to be connecting with you here today. And today for episode seven, we're going to be jumping into the topic of tower moments.
And when I say the topic of tower moments, what I mean is I'm specifically talking about the tower card that is depicted in the Tarot deck. Within the tarot deck are the major arcana cards, which outline and illustrate different milestones that we undergo within the human experience.
Now, I'm not an expert on Tarot cards, but I am an expert on transformation, and I know very well specifically with the major arcana illustrations, that there's a lot of those milestones depicted in Tarot that do really illustrate the inner workings of how we as human beings transform and evolve.
And the Tarot card of the tower specifically speaks to that time in your journey where everything just crumbles, where the tower just gets burned to the ground, where everything needs to completely dismantle, be cleared out, clear, gone, dissolved.
So that what's in true alignment Can begin to take form in its place. I mean, think about it. If you're really wanting to manifest a life that is completely different than what you're experiencing in life now, wouldn't the things that you are deeply imprinted in your current life need to be dissolved or fall away or experience undergo some kind of destruction in order to clear the path for what you want in life to come in?
If what you really want out of life what you're super desiring to manifest whether it's that soulmate relationship, the new career, health, abundance and increase in your finances creating fulfilling and aligned relationships and community in your life experiencing.
A sense of inner peace. Whatever it is that you're wanting to draw into your life right now, wouldn't it make sense that some of the things that you're currently experiencing that are present, preventing what you desire to come in?
Wouldn't those things need to be cleared out first in order to make room and space? It for those things that you're wanting to come in. Like, don't you have to let go of the old job in order to receive the new fulfilling career?
If you're desiring a partnership with soulmate. With a soulmate true love relationship and you're still carrying around a lot of trauma and pain from past relationships and experiences. Doesn't that need to be cleared first in order to make space for that true love to really come into your life?
In most cases, yes. We don't need to be perfect or have everything perfect in order to draw into our lives that which we want to manifest. That's not what I'm saying. I'm not saying that you need to be completely healed in order to draw into your life that which you're truly wanting.
But what I am saying is that the divine orchestration of the universe happens to deliver this pattern that I've noticed a lot recently went through in my own experience and I'm continuously helping clients through over and over.
At some point on this spiritual manifestation journey, we all hit one of these tower moments where everything kind of just goes to unravels, falls apart, is completely dissolved. And let me tell you, it's painful as f*ck.
and even though this transformation is excruciating, what I've noticed is that it's an extremely important part of the process in order for us to be opened up into something beautiful and new and way more in alignment with our heart's true desires.
I'm. So let me share with you a story of basically what's been going on for me personally in my world over the last few months. And what's super interesting about this is to be completely transparent.
When I began this podcast with publishing its first episode on February 1 of this year, 2023, it was my intention, with the Divinely inspired Living podcast, to really open my heart to you and to lift up the curtain that really and to lift up the curtain in a way to really give you a solid glimpse into my personal life.
The way that I personally work through challenges is my intention to come together with you in vulnerability, to demonstrate what I really mean by living a divinely inspired life and what that looks like for me, and in sharing those deepest layers of myself.
It's my hope that you are inspired, that you benefit from my experiences, and that it just helps all of us to keep growing and to keep working to fulfill our divine missions in this lifetime.
So I started this podcast with this intention being such a strong part of what I wanted to create out of our time together. And it was shortly after. Right in the midst of releasing that first episode where I was talking about transformation, I was talking about, you know, you can circle back to episode one:
“What is divinely inspired living?” Divinely Inspired Living is continuously to keep growing and evolving as the beautiful souls that we are, so that we ultimately can reach our full potential in this lifetime and accomplish the mission that we came to this planet to fulfill.
Then if you heard episode three of the Divinely Inspired Living podcast, right as I'm filming these initial episodes of this podcast, I experience a gnarly car accident. And it was that car accident and some of the things that took place before that and definitely a ton of things that have taken place after that that have really been, for me, this long, dark tunnel of intense transformation.
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Okay, so let me fill you in briefly on all the stuff that has gone on for me. So it started in January with my dad having heart issues and sadly, over the course of the winter, being hospitalized three times with three surgery attempts.
Luckily, after the third attempt, the third one was successful. Yay. Yay for dad. He's healing now, but just having three sudden hospitalizations, including being CareFlighted to UC Davis in Sacramento.
There was just a lot of intensity and focus on my dad, wanting him to get better, me kind of dropping my life at the top of a dime to try and be by his side. A lot of fear, a lot of family healing. We had a lot of interesting things come up in the family dynamic, which honestly, for me was like looking at certain things in the mirror around myself, my childhood, my family dynamic and in my triggers of these experiences, coming to realize that I wanted to create something different for my life.
And as challenging as that has been, there's been all these layers being peeled back, a lot of new understandings coming in and a lot of reliving of old trauma in order to fully let it go once and for all.
Then I was in this car accident and it was kind of a gnarly car accident. Go check out Divinely Inspired Living podcast, episode three and I talk super in detail about how eerie the divine orchestration of that car accident felt.
As during that day, I was asking the universe for guidance following my intuition as I was driving around and drove right into a collision in which I was T boned. It's a straight up miracle that everybody in that car accident was okay.
And what ended up unfolding after that podcast recording was a lot of uncertainty around how everything would really pan out. Car wise, insurance wise, financially, as a result of that car accident. So, in a nutshell, it was questionable whether or not my car would be covered by insurance, whether or not my car was totaled, whether or not I would need a new car, if it would need to come out of pocket.
It was a very uncertain, stressful time. But I've been doing my work through all of this. I'm going to circle back to some of the details about how I've been doing that, because I hate to say it, but this list of things I've been going through isn't done yet.
Okay, so turned out my car was totaled, which was extremely devastating because my vehicle was gifted to me by a really good friend who passed away three years ago. I loved that jeep. It was definitely my most prized possession.
And it was so, so special to me because I felt like my friend Bill was always with me. Now, I know a car is a car. And so there was a really strong part of my mind and heart that was easily able to let the tangible physical item go in discovering that the Jeep was totaled.
But I'm going to be honest with you that when it came to discovering that the Jeep was totaled and that I had to let it go, it felt like a huge death. So I found myself, like, grieving the death of the Jeep.
And it brought up all of this grief when it came to losing my friend Bill. So I really wasn't just grieving the loss of the Jeep. It was like my friend Bill had passed away all over again. And I was in this deep place of grief over losing someone I really care about.
As I shared in the former episode where I went into detail about the car accident, I shared in that episode that I felt like there was this strange message from the universe in that collision. Like when I was driving, I was heading one direction, I got hit by another vehicle, my Jeep spun all the way around, and by the time I landed and stopped in my vehicle, I was facing another direction.
So I walked away from that car accident feeling like the universe gave me this huge message that was, go in a different direction. Go in a different direction. Go in a different direction. Now, let me be real honest with you.
I knew exactly what that message meant, and it was regarding the divinely inspired living business office space that I recently opened in downtown Mount Shasta. As soon as I moved here, I moved here and opened up an in person location where I can conduct my business in the spiritual heart of the Mount Shasta community with the intentions of serving both in person and online.
I had a ton of high hopes for this. New phase of my business venture. And just a few months into it, there are parts of it that just didn't feel right. And to be honest, I kept experiencing obstacle after obstacle in which I found myself kind of more stressed out than living my truth and living in the flow and freedom that I'm way more accustomed to in my work.
So I was kind of chewing on the whole topic for a while leading up to this car accident, wondering, do I continue moving forward with this office space, or do I throw in the towel and go back to having a home office?
So when I set out that day on a drive, asking for divine guidance and then finding it within the experience of a collision and the loud and clear message of go in a different direction, I knew that message was guiding me to throw in the towel on that office space.
Now, I just want to quickly note here that when we ask for guidance for the universe, the universe doesn't always cause these Earth Shattering experiences in order to give us the messages we need. No, that's actually not typical.
That's usually only typical in situations where we haven't been listening to our inner guidance yet. We keep asking the same question repeatedly. The universe gives us the same answer. We don't hear it, we don't listen to it, we don't follow it, and we keep asking.
So the universe kind of gives us a little smack on the head kind of situation so that we can finally stop in our tracks and hear the message loud and clear. So there were a lot of other unseen blessings and benefits within that car accident experience that I'm still sifting through.
But I do believe that getting that smack in the head, or specifically smack on the T bone side of my vehicle, spinning all the way around, getting the message loud and clear, and then having my life really change in this kind of, like, big, drastic way, there was a higher benefit intertwined in that than what meets the eye.
And it goes far beyond the initial message or the simple message of go in a different direction. So I just want to make that clear that the universe gives us signs and guidance in all different kinds of ways when we ask for guidance.
And those earth shattering messages tend to only be delivered when we do need that loud and clear message. And we haven't really been listening to the guidance. So in my case, for example, I was already getting the guidance that it didn't feel in alignment to me to be at that office space.
And when I'm really honest with you, I was feeling that since the very beginning. But I was very invested. I was invested in making it work. I wanted to manifest my ideal situation and scenario. I invested a lot of money into that venture that I didn't want to lose.
And so I wanted to be for sure, for sure before throwing in the towel. And it was that crazy, drastic experience of the car accident which was my loud and clear sign. For sure, for sure, make this decision.
So I promptly took action on that guidance and decision and started making the moves to put in my notice, pack up and move out. At the same time all this is going on. I'm really having to pray about every single situation because it wasn't just a cut and dry easeful exit.
There are a lot of layers to it and it needed a lot of prayer, it needed a lot of tension so that I could act with intention regarding every part of the process. And at the same time, I was still moving through all those layers of the car accident so trying to be at peace with so much unknown and again, really being present for each intense moment.
Praying about. Every layer, every part of the process, and just doing my best to take one step at a time. In the midst of all this, my partner and I found out that we were expecting a child. Wow. Exciting.
And something that completely changed everything. So all of a sudden, I was definitely thinking and behaving in a way that was geared toward preparing to be a mother. I really felt like I was doing extremely well at surrendering into this whole process, feeling my feelings to the best of their ability, praying every step of the way.
And on March 22, I experienced a loss of pregnancy. And it was losing the pregnancy that was my most painful out of this whole list of experiences that happened all within two months of each other. And when I'm really honest with you, I was really good at holding it together in name of surrendering to the divine until I experienced the loss of pregnancy.
It was that experience that broke me. It was that experience that shook me to my core. It was that experience that brought me to the depth of my own pain and grief. It was during those two weeks there was like a couple of weeks there where I was listening to death metal.
It was hard for me to get out of bed. I was eating like crap. And I honestly didn't really give too about spirituality because I felt completely betrayed by the universe. And you know what? I let myself be there.
I let myself feel it fully. I didn't try to pretend that I was K and it passed. And my faith has been coming back. I've been healing every day, and I know I'm not the only one who felt it. But as soon as spring hit, it was like the sun came out, literally lighting the way toward a bright and happy future.
And the shift out of darkness and into the light, the shift out of a long, cold winter and into a bright horizon was a real and palpable shift for me. If you felt it, I can feel you nodding your head.
I know I'm not the only one who just felt the light switch flip all of a sudden a few weeks ago. And now all of a sudden, moving forward with hope is a natural part of the energy shift that we're experiencing collectively.
So in that shift is when I've felt like I've been able to move forward and since then have been beautifully opening up to a powerful new beginning that I know within every cell of my body is unfolding right now for my highest good.
For the highest and best good of myself and my partner for the highest and best good of myself and my clients for the highest and best good of myself and you as my listener and all of the podcast listeners and for the highest and best good for myself and all of my future clients and all who we get to touch and connect and experience this beautiful life together.
Now, are you shocked to hear me so positively embracing this new beginning after sharing with you the devastation that I've undergone within the last few months? There might be a little shock there, and I'm not going to sugarcoat it.
I'm still healing, and I'm healing more every day. But I am definitely genuine in my positivity, I'm definitely genuine in my full, open heartedness in embracing this new beginning. And I am 100% genuine when I tell you that I trust God, that I trust the Divine, and that at the end of the day, god's path and God's plan is the one I want to choose.
Even if that means walking through fire, even if that means undergoing devastation, even if that means temporarily losing everything so that I can gain something even more beautiful. And I have to be honest, as sucky as it is, I really think that this is part of the process.
It's part of the process of our dreams coming true. Because in order for. All those beautiful things of our heart's desires that we pray for, that we visualize, that we set intentions about over and over, that we beck into the universe with an open heart, asking for those desires to come into our lives.
In order for these things to truly come into our lives, we have to grow. We have to rise to meet it. And sometimes that can be done with intention and gently and naturally and with ease, and other times needs to blow the up.
We have to go through these tower moments where things dismantle so that the new can be built. So in the next episode, I'm going to share with you more about how I surrendered into this process every single step of the way.
I'm going to share more with you about the specific miraculous resolutions of the car accident. And I also want to go more deeply into how that relates to the way that I work with the universe in order to manifest in my life and how that when I teach others about manifestation, our Higher Power and the orchestration of Higher Power is absolutely an essential component of it.
I want to thank you for taking the time to listen to my story here. Thank you for holding space for me as. Express the depth and intensity of the things that I went through over the last few months. I want to assure you that my skin, my skin, my transformation skin is a thick skin.
I also want to note that divine source and love exists within every single situation. So within all tragedy, God can be found. Within all tragedy, there is a divine blessing within it. So is the cup half empty or is the cup half full?
Within every tragedy we experience, we can always sift through it deep enough in order to find the blessing, the lesson, the guidance. It's always going to be there. It's up to us in how we receive that tragedy or challenging situation and find the silver lining within it.
So I'm curious, can you relate to these type of tower moment situations that I described in this episode? Have you been through one of those seasons of life where crazy, intense things just keep happening one after the other?
Is it something that you came through the other side of this tunnel feeling like new and shiny version of yourself? Or is that something that you need support in becoming and really being able to extract out the lessons and blessings from these tower moment like experiences?
I'd love to keep this conversation going. I'd love to hear what you have to say. I want to invite you to head on over to the Facebook group, Inspired Souls Creating Radiant, Intuitive Lives and I'll be in the Facebook group.
Let's keep the conversation going over there. It would mean so much to me to hear your feedback and life experience sentences as it relates to this episode. I want to thank you again for joining me, for holding space for me.
I'm sending you a big hug and I'll see you next time.